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I regret to say that I have lied far more times than I’d want to admit.

And I realize there’s no way I can rationalize lying. I can’t say, “I’ll lie to just so-and-so group of people, and not to you.”

What is to stop that statement from being a lie in itself?

Moral subjectivity has got to be one of the worse things that’s happening now, because anyone can rationalize anything. If we think certain morals is just a matter of perspective, we are on very dangerous ground (because I don’t need to agree with you, and neither do you need to agree with me. Yet you cannot choose to disagree my stance because you agree that morality is subjective and yet I cannot disagree with you because I say that morality is subj.. you get the point).

So how, should we avoid the question totally?

Right now I don’t claim to have any reasonable conclusion on that matter, but I’m working it out. See how this goes.

People, I know sometimes it’s hard to find hope, or joy in a life that’s strewn with so much madness going round. There seems to be so much hopelessness everywhere.

I believe the key is to just stop looking at ourselves.

Think about it, many times we feel emo because we do not get a certain thing (or person) we want, we cannot achieve a certain desire we hope for, we cannot receive the sort of treatment that we believe we deserve.

I’m not immune to such feelings too ya noe, but whenever I get hit by such emo-waves, I will tell myself not to dwell on it and actively think about the many thousands of people out there that are worse off than me.

Because when you look at it, SERIOUSLY, we are far from unfortunate. But why are we still so sad? Instead of counting our blessings, why do we want much more?

Tonight was a rather emo night, but I told myself that I need to wake up and look further. No more living just for today or tomorrow, wake up. There has to be a happy ending, some form of redemption to your story, or mine.

Many times it is not immediate, but persevere, guard your heart, guard your values. This is really important. Because once you compromise, you lose a part of yourself to the world. You don’t want to run all the way and realize you don’t know who you are, right?

Life has more reason to live than we think.

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Today, I am very very glad to declare that a big burden is gone; something I’ve held on for so long has finally been settled. At least, to a certain extent. I’m really so thankful to God I can just cry.

Okay. Time for bed. Got tuition to teach tomorrow, must be prepared. BANZAI!

Welcome to the best pig soup hawker! Where you’ll find the bestest of the best pig soup in Singapore! I am not kidding.

This is a big bowl of pig soup. Poor little pigs. See how everything on the table blurs in comparison? It is delicious!

I was supposed to teach tuition after work. But horrors of horrors, I have double booked myself!

Ended up hanging around J8 and chatting with a friend for a long long time. Haven’t had such a fun meetup since the last millennium. Let’s go out again sometime yeah =)

This was what I had for lunch, Tom Yum + Fried Fish Pieces Slices. It is one of my favorites from the food court – a little saltish though. There’s an extra bowl of soup at the corner because I had wanton mee before tom yum.

This is Arai. She practically has the tom yum soup everyday.

This is beicheng (schoolmate) and daniel (TP intern).

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And then later in the evening, sherry sis came over to have dinner with us.

This is hontat; I know he doesnt like to be popular on the net, so I added mosaic on his face.

And this is beicheng, slurping his milo.

And sis, after having her meal, decides to scare us all with her new, blood red specs!

This was taken by beicheng. Me and sis walking into the night. cho romantic ne? *pukes* XD

After which, me and sis went to Starbucks for a drink. No photos because we chatted so much that I forgot!

Today’s a non-working day both for Alvin W. and myself, so we went to swim! (Yet again, I know… We love it). Today we went to Yio Chu Kang, the place is quiet and is just next to the MRT station. Very nice and ulu.

After which, we went downtown to Dhoby Ghaut to eat at this place called “Mad Jack” at Paradiz Centre. It’s new, but the food’s really good. I ordered a spring chicken and forgot to tell I want rice, the boss was nice and gave me a bowl free-of-charge!

This was what I ate. Half a spring chix, fries, apple salad and rice.

And this is Alvin and his chicken chop.

Chickens are the ultimate sacrificial animals, let us pay tributes to the millions that sacrifice themselves daily – whether willingly or unwillingly – for us to eat em. Haha.

Talking about food, Mad Jack serves vegan food too. What I don’t like some vegan restaurants is that they loved to dress up their food to resemble animals. Hey, if you are a vegan (especially the ones that do it to not murder), do it with your heart or not do it at all. Making your food look like an animal is just performing the act on the surface, but not putting your heart in it at all.

Anyway.

Right now, I’m at Starbucks (The Cathay) doing some work that I should have done a long time ago. Even though my back is facing the glass window (=everyone can see what I am doing), I find that I’m very productive, which, I attribute to bright bright sun shining in: it keeps my focus high.

And thus, my new room shall have plenty of sun coming in.

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So I’m at home now, waiting for nothing to happen.

And I decided to take photos of my room. Hahaha.

This is my study room. I absolutely adore my guitar and piano, see their bright smiley faces. XD
My table has been in a mess, is in a mess, and will be in a mess forevermore. Long live the king of the table.

This is my bedroom. See the bright faces of my dumbbells, I play with them almost everyday.
And that’s my faithful mirror, he never fails to scare me every morning.

When the renovations of the new house are up, I’ll go take some more photos of rooms.