Move Your Ass
我们两个是不可能的.
It’s painful to hear, but it’s just what I needed. Staying in the past and blaming it won’t help. Overreacting to this this in the present moment will snuff out anything good that could in the future.
It’s all good.
Just Like Him
Now, are you telling me that you are so unbelievably arrogant that you can't admit that there's a teeny tiny possibility that you could be wrong about this?
– Phoebe, speaking to Ross in Friends 2x03. Regarding the Theory of Evolution.
The Busy Weekend
I'm typing this inside Long John Silvers on a rainy Sunday evening while having my dinner. Although I'm not a great fan of the rain, it's presence had a calming effect on me today.
The weekend has been filled with much work: work that made me feel extremely helpless about myself. Pardon me if you tried to contact me and I did not reply, there were just too many things to think about, research and do. Stress and busy don't go very well together.
It was a wake up call that time was short and my skill set was inadequate. I need to buck up. Like, seriously.
It’s a Great Week
Despite the low productivity, it has been a great week.
Call me dramatic, after what felt like far too long a Winter, Spring is back. :)
Sometimes
If I knew it would hurt so much, I wouldn’t even have bothered talking. Seriously, what have I expected to hear?
All or Nothing
It’s nice to see you laughing and smiling. Although, I can’t help feeling a little sore that I’m not the one who’s making that happen.
I’m not content with us being mere friends. And on your side, I know you’ll never entertain the thought of us being lovers. If I become friends with you, I get hurt. If you force yourself to be with me, you’ll be unhappy.
The only win-win situation I can think of is for both of us to not exist in each other’s lives. That way, I don’t get hurt more, and you won’t get any unhappier.
With time, I think the unhappiness both of us are feeling now will fade.
It’s not funny how I can objectively look at other people’s relationships and give advice, but when it comes to my own, I just get lost in my own sea of emotion and drown.
You told me that your past lovers have all gotten over you and became your close friends. Don’t expect the same from me because I am different from the rest.
But you already knew that.
If you wish to stay, we shall walk into our future together.
Otherwise I think you should just go.
Left Behind
I am happy I’m walking with you all. But I’m so afraid of the day where all of you speed up, run forward, and unknowingly, I’m left behind, alone.
I Look Forward
- To learning HTML5 and Objective C properly. I’m a Flasher and I’m an Apple fan. I have no comments about recent happenings between both of them. All I know is that to stay relevant in the advertising industry, I’m gonna have to pick these skills up.
- To launch our big project in the army. Since there are so many projects going on all the time, there are no security issues here in that one statement (LOL). But if it works out and things happen according to plan, it could potentially move everything forward. It has to, else all the effort our team has made will be wasted.
- To work at Make in September 2010. Obviously, I will miss the work I do in the army (I’m serious), but I’ll know there are greater things I can do outside in the commercial sector.
It’s Q2 of 2010, time is running short. Let’s go.
Why I Work So Hard
Some people ask me why I work so hard for an organization like the army. Let’s just say that I’m very thankful to be given the chance to do programming and design despite being combat fit. When I compare my life with the rest of my friends, I really think I get it much better.
None of the work I do can be featured in my portfolio for obvious reasons. But c’mon, how many people in the army actually get to work on their future while serving their two years? I’m not complaining.
What I’m Missing
I miss clubbing and partying.
I miss my iPhone.
I miss life – non-military, actual, real, life.
I miss talking to you late in the night, just the two of us. I’m awfully jealous of your new obsessions, just so you know. But to prevent another end-of-the-world from happening, I have decided not to even tell you – and avoid you till the feelings fade.