!Belong
Belonging, I think everyones want to belong somewhere, be associated with something or someone. After all, no man is an island on his own.
Yet, I’ve come to learn that the complexity of human relationships makes it a very difficult thing to handle. All 23 years of my life I’ve thought the only way to keep a relationship going is to give, be it money, things, attention, whatever.
But at the end of the day I’ll start questioning myself if doing these things will mean anything. I don’t wanna blow my own horn but many many times, I feel like I give too much and get little in return. Although I shouldn’t demand for anything, it’s these little things that add up kill me. Perhaps I’m just envious of the fact that some people can naturally have it all and I can’t. Inferiority complex. :(
My sis told me a few weeks back that this way of looking at life is very flawed. I think deep down I know something is wrong with my approach too. But what if I tell you that I have no idea what the correct approach should be like?
A friend made a comment saying that I have got “a lot of friends here.”
So why then do I feel like I don’t belong anywhere?