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Input ≠ Output

Sometimes you put in a lot, only to see the result of your hard work go to someone else. Sometimes you don’t do anything, yet shit comes. Sometimes people have no skill yet they are given the power to make life difficult for you.

Life is sure feeling like that right now for me.

I often kept myself optimistic and pretend to be oblivious to the situation, but I think if I do this anymore I’ll just drive myself crazy. Something just wasn’t right.

Thus, I sat myself down to reflect carefully so I will not make the same mistakes again.

1. I’m just gonna allocate resources to my areas of responsibility from now on. If I decide to give 50% for work, I will just say no. Even if I have extra time like say, after working hours. That way, I will always have free time for self-development.
2. When I give, I give 100% within the capacity I allocate. My intentions should not be to gain anything in return, not even recognition, affirmation, acknowledgement, or even a word of thanks. If I set off with the correct mentality, these things will fall into place eventually. I also save myself from a lot of mindfuck if I don’t get what I expect.
3. Just enjoy what I do and smile while doing it.

Since I don’t always reap what I sow, why do I even choose to be bothered by it? I can’t change the environment or others, I can only work with myself. So this is what I shall do from now on.